Jesus, Take the Wheel

Here is the Carrie Underwood video for this song if you haven’t heard the song before

I’d say this song of hers ‘So Small’ is the motto of my life recently. This great video can only be viewed on YouTube so here’s a working video:

I’ve been holding off on mentioning this current aspect of my life, and unless I tell people they have no idea.

I originally wrote this with more information but for now I won’t include many details.

In the past few years I’ve spent some of that time sleeping on a friend’s couch (though I never considered that as being homeless, there Was a roof over my head, even if not my own).

Since last March, aside from 1 month again at my friend’s place, I’ve been living in a shelter.


It’s definitely not an easy thing to go through but I’ve managed, and have taken this time to figure things out in my life.

It’s been a great growth experience, I’ll say that. Giving up practically everything I own (Once again – I have done that too many times in my life) and learning to be ok with it; we’re very much attached to our possessions. Giving up my books was the most painful thing but I did it. I did it.

Living with people who are on the lowest rung of society’s ladder I am learning more about the ‘human condition’. I can identify behaviours more clearly, understand psychology more easily.

Every single day my motivation and happiness gets tested. And every day I get better at becoming immune to outside forces. Happiness is an internal state, an internal choice. There is indeed humour to be found Anywhere, even in the shelter system (believe me I chuckle, or even LOL, regularly at the stuff I see. Silly humans 8-D). I’m in my 2nd shelter, this one being a ‘last stop’ type shelter; it’s the last option before the street for people who get kicked out of other shelters. The people I ‘live’ with are some of the hardest I’ll ever have to deal with in my life. But this experience is coming to an end. I now have figured out and learned what I needed to for myself.

But know this: if I can handle this massive upheaval then so can you!

I am no better than anyone. I am no stronger than anyone. I am just as infallible as anyone. I’ve just decided to not give in. Ever. That’s all it is. A choice. A simple choice.

I have my dark days too, but they do pass. Yours will as well. It’s not by accident that you’ve made it this far in life!

Anyone who walked out of the concentration camps survived, not necessarily because they went in being strong willed but because they Decided to become strong willed. They decided to endure whatever they had to, if it meant survival, so that one day they could walk out. POW’s had to use much more than they were taught in basic military training. They had to reach deep down to find the courage and strength that they needed. But whatever they needed was there. It was right there when they needed it, deep down. We ALL have what we need, deep down, to get through. We just have to reach for it.  

You don’t need a gym to get in shape, you don’t need college or university to get an education, and you don’t need to be a superhero to do super things. You just have to make the choice.

“God doesn’t give you more than you can handle.” I wish he didn’t believe in me so much. But he does, so I will too.



What is Spirituality?


This topic freaks people out. When you bring it up they think you’re a born again Christian or are trying to sell them religion.
Do you think you’re spiritual? Well you are. Your spirituality is Whatever you believe. It is yours and yours alone. Whether you believe in God/Source/Higher Consciousness or not is your belief; your spirituality. Religion can be strict, full of rules and is typically written down. It’s like goal posts on a playing field. You aim for going just between those goal posts and no where else. Don’t look up in the stands, don’t be curious. Just aim for those goal posts.

I was never one to follow the rules. I also had issues with what I heard in Church. That doesn’t mean I don’t believe, far from it, but I needed room to go outside of the goal posts. Way outside.
When you’re thinking of All that is possible, of every conceivable ‘reality’, look at pictures like this – or at least keep them in mind.
Click on each one, enlarge it. Really look at it. Every single pin-point of light is a star. With planets. Every single one.
Are we the only life forms that could possibly exist in the universe? Hmmm.





Think of every single ‘coincidence’ you’ve experienced. Ever. I don’t believe in coincidence myself.

We only use 10-15% of our brain. Everyone accepts this. Yet many people still believe it’s just coincidence that…when they reach out to a friend that friend says “Hey, I was just thinking about you!”, when they turn on the radio and the song in their head is the one playing on the radio, when they get a feeling to take a different route or get off the highway then find out that change saved them from a bad or lethal accident. Babies who have no attention span can be enraptured by a blank space on the wall. Animals too. Any chance the other 85-90% is at play here? Hmmm.

Things that make you go hmmm.

To me religion paints the world in black in white. I believe the reality is an amazing palette of colours. I think our minds can’t even comprehend most of what is ‘real’. Watch this 4D Tesseract. As your brain tries to figure out what it’s seeing the darn thing moves and your brain gets confused again.

I linked a video about the double slit experiment in a previous post. It, and many other great ideas, get mentioned in this awesome video by Joe Rogan:

Spirituality is questioning, questioning, questioning. And throwing out the rule book. And realizing that we likely can’t conceive of most of what even…IS…until we Completely open our minds. Stop judging ideas, who’s to say the weirdest ideas anyone has about existence aren’t Bang On? Even if they contradict?

Oh, and don’t be judging reality by what your eyes see. Or your 5 senses really: we can’t see UV light or hear dog whistles. And these pictures are Not moving ;-)





Things that make you go hmmm. :-D

Keeping the Faith

   Religion gets talked about a lot and faith seems to get lumped under that umbrella, as if ‘faith’ means belonging to a religion. I hear, and believe, that faith is very important for each of us, to be healthy, successful individuals. It is a deep-seated belief that helps us and pushes us along when life gets tough. And we all know that life will Always get tough at times, just as it will always get better.

My personal faith is in a Greater Power, not a Greater Being. That’s just me and I’m entitled to that belief, just as I respect the beliefs of others. We all have reasons for choosing to believe in what we do. (Hopefully we all will question our beliefs at some point, just to make sure they still make sense as we change and grow.)

(I got this beautiful picture from Viktor Egelund’s facebook page Taken by Christian Houge. His page is a great inspiration. Worth a visit!)